Thursday, October 28

My Beautiful Friend

A million hearts are hurting cause they love you
Close your eyes and feel their arms around you now
Baby just like me I'm sure they're thinking of you
But know somehow this will all work out
I stand upon the roof
And stare at the stars now
For the reason why or something I can do
Every thing that mattered yesterday so far now
Away from you
What you're going through.. baby
But just you hold on girl
Yes you are, and try to be strong girl
Cause baby love will conquer all
And it won't be long before you'll be dancing in the rain again
My beautiful friend
My beautiful friend..
If you ever feel there's no strength left inside you
Just know I'm by your side and hold me all here tight
Sometimes the moon is all the light you need to guide you
Through the darkest night
Let me be the light..
But just you hold on
Yes you are, yes you are, and try to be strong
Cause baby love will conquer all
And it won't be long before you'll be dancing in the rain again

The desert soon will turn to bloom
You'll start to feel a change in you
The sky will seem a deeper blue than it ever was before
A whole new world will open up as you stand face to face with life
And know I can imagine how you'll be more beautiful than you are now

Thursday, September 9

Take A Second

Assalammualaikum w.b.t

The fasting month is almost coming to its end. With the end of the fasting season comes the month of celebration for all muslims around the world. Each and every one of us would be busy decorating our houses in welcoming the month of syawal. There are also some of us would travel back to their 'kampung' before dawn or even in the middle of the night. In our hearts, we are very delighted as we are able to get together under one roof after a year of separation. We would gather from every side of the family. We would laugh, smile and even play with each other.

However,

Have we ever take a second to think those who are not as lucky as us. Those who had lost their families way back in the past. Those children that are being born in an orphanage house. Those people who came from a broken family. Those whom may not be capable to feel joy due to a certain disease or sickness. How would they feel?? During the moment we are joyed with laughter, they are the ones crying. During the moment we are able to eat all kinds of food and drinks, they are the ones who are in hunger. During the moment we are in a healthy state, they are the ones holding back their tears to withstand the overwhelming pain.

We always tend to forget that we are still considered lucky as the moment of happiness is still within our grasp but to those who are unfortunate, what will become of them?? What are their chances of feeling what we feel. We may not feel the pain as we do not go through the pain itself. Taking things for granted is what we practice. We only learn to realize when whatever we have is taken away from us.

Its the raya celebration, why do we have to be in such a way. Its the month where each and every individual should feel joy as its a gift from Allah to us. We should never be greedy towards others.

'We share the same bright sun, the same round moon. So why don't we share the same love. Tell me why not as life is shorter than most have thought'

Its something for us to ponder during the month of Syawal.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI. MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.

love
-C.c-

Thursday, September 2

Worn Out Me

Sleepy yesterday
Sleepy today
Sleepy tomorrow..

Seriously in need of a dose of vitamin c now..

Sunday, August 29

Emotions Runs Dry

They say love is blind
I say it blinds you

It Tempts you off your sanity, abide by the mind rules
The truth behind the myth, it lies in our reality and fills it all with lies and sweet promises

L.O.V.E is just a four letter word that is sung in a melody
When it comes to love, every couple wants to be the next Cleo and Anthony
Or Clyde and Bonnie, or even Frank butler and Annie
Mumtaz and Shah, Gina Montana and Manny

However, this is no love epic, but still I’m just a hopeful skeptic
I’m not in love with you, I’m just in love at you
Distant admiration has cause a ruin towards the whole picture
Its because id bet a million dollars that you would be dancing in a million minds

Just to let you know

My heart is screaming although nobody can hear my cries
Wishing on a star as I look into the night accompanied with a little prayer only God can understand my plight
Glimpses of her sight, flashing in my mind

Somebody told me once that patience is a virtue
And true love is worth waiting for although it might just hurt you
And if it comes right back, that means it’s truly destined

I promise to hold back the tears, never to say never

A few things last forever, so I write this poem knowing that the writings shall never fade upon the walls that i wrote on.

And though I soldier on being numb and emotionless, these feelings in my heart will never change cause

*I loved you from the start*

love
C.C

Friday, August 6

Love Story

There are things that I have to tell you about as I can't hold it in my heart...

All this pain is breakin' me down and killing me down deep
Thought I found my one true love..However, I just couldn't show you how I feel
Sorry, I was stupid as my pride wouldn't let me be real

So, Please..I'm asking for one more chance..I Didn't know where you stand..
My heart tells me your more than just a friend but not to my head...

Now
I realize that your the one I really want
Im pleading so that you wont let our memories pass us by
Please..Don't leave me out cold
You let me out in the rain
when you just walked away

These words are my story of a true tragedy
I gave up my heart and I tried to give you all of me
But still...We've come to the ending somehow
I don't know what to do
But I don't wanna forget now
I love you and will still be loving you
This is the sound of honesty
I gave up my heart and tried to be all I could be for you
To let you know
My heart gonna wait forever
I'm still holding on to all of our moments together

I'm asking for you to give me chance
Give me your hand
So we can both understand this love
Im pleading so that this love will remain between us
All the pieces of my soul wants to live in your heart

Why did you close the door, my heart is broken within without you
I can't do it no more and its killing me

No matter what I do or say I know you wont understand how i feel
Even though it hurts..I'll make a brand new start
And lay the rest all the moments
That played with my heart

But just before I do
I gotta let you know that
No man will love you more
So baby never forget


Just want you to see that I'm without you..All I know is right now...I love, I'll always love you






Kesepian Hati

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Namun diri ini tidak mahu lagi menanggung derita di hati
Terpisahnya kita kerana haluan diri yang berbeza

Biarpun diri ini berdiam diri
Tetapi adakah mungkin kita bersama
Diri ini tahu bahwa ia tidak sempurna untuk dirimu
Kau bak permata dan diri ini bak kaca yang hanya melukakan

Adakah mungkin segala derita di jiwa
Adakah ia akan terubat jua akhirnya.
Masa yang memahami apa yang dihasrat oleh hati

Dari tadi diri ini melihat dirimu lari
Apa yang dapat impikan..hanyalah dirimu
Biarpun diri ini tidak bercerita
Betapa siang malam diri ini menderita
Biarlah luka berdarah ini berkekalan di dalam hati

Diri ini tahu bahwa,
Jangan dibiarkan perasaan menawar hati
Jangan dibiarkan semuanya berlalu pergi

Diri ini tahu
Engkau yg melupakannya..saat gembira bersama..bukan diri ini
Hanya diri ini yang mengimpikan agar kita berbahagia hingga ke anak cucu
Tapi itu semuanya tinggal kenangan
Yang tinggal hanyalah perasaan diri ini yang hanyut dalam arus kesepian
Biarlah dalam doa diri ini senantiasa memohon untuk hanya ingin selalu berada di samping mu..

Seringkali,

Diri ini mengenangkan mu
Siang..malam diri ini doakan kebahagaian dirimu
Yang dipinta hanyalah tulus hati mu
Agar kau balas kerinduan yang lahir jauh di sudut hati diri ini
Namun Ku sedar ianya tiada nilai di sisimu,


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Thursday, July 8

Hello Yellow Fellow!!

Hello Morning
Hello Sunshine
Hello Flower
Hello Butterfly
Hello Grass
Hello Sand
Hello Everybody

HELLO TO YOU!!

Tuesday, July 6

Let Me Ask Ya?


What do you do when you come across a flower that is beautiful?
You wanna grab hold of it but the thorns on the flower are giving u a hard time to get hold of the flower.

If you cut the flowers branch and only take the petals, this may ruin the flower and its beauty. It'll fade by the time you know it. You keep staring at the flower thinking of so many ways on how to accomplish your mission and achieve your goals. The more you think and the more you do, the harder it takes for you to hold the flower.

You Stare..stare...and...stare at God's beautiful creation. You want it so bad that it makes you feel depressed as you know its impossible for you to hold in onto the palm of your hand. At times, your heart says 'Just do It, its not wrong to give it a chance'. However, your afraid of the pain that you may feel. You're afraid that the effort you've given is not worth the price. Still, your in dilemma as you want to capture God's perfect creation and keep it close to you.

You never want to lose it as you may not know when will you ever find this golden opportunity. In fact, will you ever get the opportunity ever again??
Your heart ask you to go for it but your mind rebels to what is logic.

Ask yourself, How do you conquer the emotions that runs through your mind, blood, veins..Is it really worth your effort?And will it ever be yours and yours alone??

How much pain is not what matters but how long is it gonna be is what matters most!!

To take or Not to Take..That is the question..


Monday, July 5

New Entre

Dear Blog,
Its been a while since i wrote on your wall. sorry for abandoning you..sorry for not updating ya aswell.. well today i just moved into my new room..

yeap lots of things to do though..clean here and there..mop the floor, scrape the bathroom and the toilet..All sorts of things need to be done to make the apartment one helluva clean place for me and my roomies to stay..

However, tonight i watched TOY STORY 3..it was wonderful..the story line was impressive..It wowed the people in the cinema including me and izzat nawi..hahahhaha..we had a couple of laughs and certainly we enjoyed what we watched..hahahhaha..

Anyways, tomorrow's the start of my new semester.. Wish me luck throughout my studies..will update you wnever i can..wink*

Monday, April 26

Life

You wake up in the morning
To find that its monday

Head to the showers!!
Brush your teeth..
Get Dress..
Hope onto the bus..
Reach the office..
Punch In..
Sit at the office desk..
Stare at the computer..
Start working..
Get some lunch..
Continue working..
Punch Out..
Head home..
Have dinner with the family..
Check the emails and messages..
Take a shower..
Watch some tv..
Climb to bed..
Close the eyes..
Go to sleep..

Get ready for the next day...
Another day,another dollar..

Friday, April 23

Things I Do If I Miss You

During your absence..
Im just being me..

Its just that...

Id view your facebook..
wait..
Its not stalking..but..its just a routine check..

Id see your pictures..
wait..
Its not day dreaming..but..its observing in detail

Id imagine you in my head..
wait..
Its not fantasizing..but..its just to remember how you look like

Id view your number..
wait..
Its not to wait for your call..but..its just browsing my phonebook

Id view your number again..
wait..
Its not to hear your voice..but..to edit your contact

Id say your name..
wait..
Its not that i miss you..but..its just that your name rings a bell

Id dream about you at night..
wait..
Its not that i want you with me..but..its just the picture of u drops in during that moment

Id talk about you
wait..
Its not that I want to..but..its just something that people as about

HURMMM..However..id be lying to myself if all of the above happen with the

but

As the truth is..

Id view your facebook = Stalking you
Id see your pictures = Day dreaming about you
Id imagine about you = Fantasizing about you
Id view your number = Wait for your call
Id view your number again = To hear your voice
Id say your name = I miss you(only god knows how much)
Id dream about you = I want you with me
Id talk about you = I want to(cure the miss i have)





Wednesday, April 21

Pics and MOre Pics





well 'these' are me...hope you guys too are just as happy as i am..as life we go thru it once...just draw smiles and insyallah..everything is fine..k..wink*

Saturday, April 3

numbers are Crazy

1+1=2
6x3=18

Why isn't it a 3...
Why isn't it a 17

???numbers numbers..

Friday, March 26

Fuckta!!

It says that it is a fact that:-

Today is actually
Yesterday's tomorrow and
Tomorrow's yesterday!.

It is also said that
If U take A Dollar from ur wallet between yesterday and tomorrow
U have lost a dollar and gain something from tomorrow's yesterday
And found nothing for yesterdays tomorrow
and
Wondering next for todays tomorrow!!

Thursday, March 25

Ponder??


Have you ever face a dream that have kind of a scary flow.
I have. It was just about a couple of minutes ago!
Basically, It's kinda shocking actually.

The story happens like this:-

Basically me and my a few of my friends were out for the night and we were and a beautiful place. I don't even know what is the place called but i can bet ya'll that IT is BEAUTIFUL. So, my friends and i had great fun. It was like a party some sort but an open one!!We were at the 2nd floor(in terms of G level and 1st level).Yea. We were at the 2nd level just enjoying the night under the full moon.

Through all the fun, suddenly a few people which includes some of my friends fell off the 2nd floor and onto the G level. How did they fell. Actually the edge of the floors are basically being placed a glass border. The border broke people leaning on it fell(which includes some of my friends. It was a tragedy. none survive the fall and a few teams of paramedics came an hour after the incident. When it happened, I was only able to see my friends fall as i wasn't near them and could not save them. There was 12 of them had died that night. I was left hanging as I was in a traumatize state. I could not say anything, I was stun by the incident. My face was showing null emotions. I kept quiet and sat by the side-looking at the bodies that lay on the floor and the spurring blood that drip on the floor. Silence. A paramedic took wrap me in a towel and took me outside. They checked my eyes and asked some questions but i barely answered any of them. Slowly, I looked upon the bodies that we wrapped in a black zipped bag which are being carried into the ambulance for hospitals examination and clarification. I was then sent back home. I could not sleep that night. In fact I took the courage and urge my way to the place of incident. I was emotionless till now. The area was covered with 'Police Line. Do Not Cross' tags. I walked into the center where the fall took place and after a few minutes I broke down to tears.

After that, it took me 2-3 weeks to recover(I think-as it didn't say how long..just assuming). During that moment, I was going through my life in an ordinary way, when all of a sudden I eventually saw the shadow of my friend down a small alley. I was shocked with the appearance. This friend of mine was looking at me in a smiling face. My friend approached to me and said that it was a moment that my friend would never forget. My friend said that the life she's going through is lonely but happy. My friend was going through a normal life although speaking to the loved ones was not possible now but having the chance to look and be among them makes it a wonderful moment. My friend did told me that the others that fell during the night are going through the same situation and they too accepted what has happened. They were glad that they still have their loved ones alive and well. To them, now they are the guardian of their family and this time its eternal. Before we went our separate ways, my friend did told me that do come and visit them as I am the only one who understands them and my friend said "Thank You & keep it safely."

I was speechless of what happened during that moment and I went to the wall and leaned my body against it and took a sit. Finally i remembered that the night i came and visit the place of incident, I found a ring that belongs to my friend and that ring was found by me. My friend knew that the ring did not lose its way in fact was now in safe hands.

*I woke up sitting on my bed after that*-yup..That's my dream..quite shocking isn't it..!!CREEPY!!

A L0nely Stranger


I am just a stranger
Walking across her dreams
Gazing at her beauty
Seeing her as the way it seems
With the blue pupils in her eyes
Makes her glow above the beautiful skies

I am just a stranger
Looking at her from a distant space
Avoiding her before her eyes
As she has such a beautiful grace
Soft skin and wonderful smile
Lights up a dark alley for several miles

I am just a stranger
Looking upon those lips
As a silent whisper blows by
Knowing being with her are shameless fibs
An angel as sweet as doves
Showering us with present from the above

I am just a stranger
Having a glimpse of her across the street
Looking at her for as long as I can
Burning my soul with every moment of it
As she sips her coffee, reading a newspaper
Making an impression towards all the ponders

Taking my breath slowly and calm
Having thoughts in mind
Who is she?Will I ever know?
As I am a stranger
With a lonely heart that never glow..




Thursday, March 18

Expression of the mind.

Its here...again..
The examination week is here..DAMN..
Wanna face it as soon as possible but afraid to face it.
Wanna get done with it but inferior of the marks
Wanna be in the exam hall but scared due to lack of preparation.

HOHOHO..

When will this feeling ever end..

EXAMS..exams..exams..
Why are you so hard
'Read carefully and answer'-how is this quote possible when you dont have a damn idea on how to answer..Hell yes!!its so not true.

Time to study mr dummy..hahhahaha..
Its just a crap of whats in mind

A Silent Sleeper

Hey to 'you'..Whoever you may be..You Know who you are..

Have you ever wondered about me?
Definitely NOT!!

Ever wondered how you live in my mind and in my dreams
You are the light through the dark.
You are my joy through the sorrow.
You are the best part of who I am.
You are my everything!!
BUT

:::When you :::

Let go of me, I fall down to the lowest ground.
Left me alone, I was paralyze.
Say 'I dont need You' - I was shot with a gun
Met another guy, I was stab by the back
Say goodbye, I was already dead.
Kiss the other guy, I am nothing.
Told me we were friends, I was partly cured
When you never told me anything, I was in a shattered mess
:::This may:::
-sound stupid-..

+++HOWEVER+++

My heart misses you
Wants to see you
My heart sees you
But can barely touch you
My heart feels you
But you are so far away..

Let it be of what's left of it..
The want shall never sees the need

Let the one be just only an admirer from a distance
And holds his beautiful thoughts of you as a

[SILENT SLEEPER]


Tuesday, March 9

Who I am

I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?
I want to break all the madness
But it's all I have
I want someone to love me
For who I am

Nothing makes sense
Nothing makes sense anymore
Nothing is right
Nothing is right when your gone.
I'm losing my breath
I'm losing my right to be wrong
I'm frightened to death
I'm frightened that I won't be strong

I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?
I wanna break all the madness
But it's all I have
I want someone to love me
For who I am

I'm shaking it off
I'm shaking off all of the pain.
Breaking my heart
Breaking my heart once again

I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?
I wanna break all the madness
But it's all I have
I want someone to love me
For who I am

Are you gonna love me

I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?
I wanna break all the madness
But it's all I have
I want someone to love me
For who I am

Wednesday, March 3

STOP blaming other's

Well, it seems nowadays each and every day the heat is rising up on poor mother earth. Hurmm, Who are the parties tha should be blamed upon this 'scorching issue'..It is basically none other than ourselves. The reason is because, we are always on the verge of advancing the country with all sorts of advanced technology and high equip buildings in order to keep up with the wave of transformation of new era and generation.

Trees are being cut down as high rise building stand tall among us. This actually contributes to the heat hence giving us a very hot climate. A torrid day evokes all of us to the land of the dessert. Where is the cooling and suitable weather??It has already struck each and everyones mind about the condition of the weather but what are we doing to help in solving this issue..All complaint, no action does not solve the matter. Stop blaming others and lets put our shoulders together in overcoming this problem..Lets MAKE a CHANGE.

CHANGE our attitude
LOOK for the best solution.
STOP being a self-centered person
THINK of our future generations and what's to come.

We are humans, GOD's best creation. We are given the most precious and valuable item and all we got to do is use it wisely. We got to work our minds. Stop pointing fingers as it does not solve anything..

HAVE THE MENTALITY OF A HUNTER, NOT THE MENTALITY OF THE HUNTED

So, lets all together hold hands, put on the thinking cap and repair the damage done towards

MOTHER NATURE!!



Tuesday, February 23

One after another.

Hohoho. Finally the assignment for one of my subject is done. It's over. Next stop, calculus's quiz. Got to study. Im left out far behind. Got to put back the study mood back online..Wish me luck guys..

Wednesday, February 17

See me, See You!!


Whenever i see when you see me,
What do you actually see?
Do you see the way i see you?
Or do you see the way you see me?
What do you see when you see me?
And you wonder what do I see when i see you?
What do we actually see?
And what for do we see?
Because i see you,
The same as you see me,

So, do you see the way i see?
Or do you still see me the way you see you,
Do you get confuse on what we see
As i am confuse with what i see!!

What do you really see??
Do you see me?
Or do you see you?
I guess we both know what you see,
We also know what i see,
its just that what you see,
Is the same as what i see,
I see you
And you see me.

We see see..wink*

Monday, February 15

KETULUSAN HATI


Cintaku tak berdusta
Tak mengenal ingkar
Tak kenal nestapa
Cintaku hanya indah
Hanya bahagia untuk selamanya
Apa yang kurasakan ini
Persembahan untuk dirimu
Kau biarkan kasihku

Mencintaimu tak mengenal waktu
Tak mengenal puitis
hanya tulusnya hati
mencintaimu tak mengenal ragu
keyakinan hatiku hanya untuk dirimu selalu

Cintaku tak berdusta
Tak mengenal ingkar
Tak kenal nestapa
Tak ada seribu janji
Hanya bahagia untu selamanya
Apa yang kurasakan ini
Persembahan untuk dirimu
Kau benarkan kasihku

Mencintaimu tak mengenal waktu
Tak mengenal puitis hanya tulusnya hati
Mencintaimu tak mengenal ragu
Keyakinan hatiku hanya untuk dirimu selalu

Apa yang kurasakan ini
Persembahan untuk dirimu
Kau dengarkan kasihku

oooo

Mencintaimu tak mengenal waktu
Tak mengenal puitis hanya tulusnya hati
Mencintaimu tak mengenal ragu
Keyakinan hatiku hanya untuk dirimu selalu




Credit to Anuar Zain for a very nice song.

What Do Boys Want For Christmas!!



A SWEET AND CUTE GIRL TO BE THE SHINING STAR OF HIS LIFE

A HIGH OCTANE-VELOCITY VEHICLE THAT DRIVES HIS ADRENALINE WILD
A HANDFUL & POCKETFUL OF MONEY FOR ALL KINDS OF BUSINESS

Futsal @ wawasan











Event: futsal@wawasan
Venue: Sports Planet Kajang
Date: February
THE HAPPY FACES OF UNITEN






It was a blast. Had fun and was able to get along..Thanx guys..Thanx bayet especially for driving me there..ehehhe..wink*






Questions of life!!


What is there to life without someone you love?
What is there to life without someone you care?
What is there to life without someone to share?
What is there to life without someone to trust?
What is there to life without someone to miss?
What is there to life without someone to kiss?
What is there to life without someone to carry?
What is there to life without someone to marry?
What is there to life without someone to hug?
What is there to life without someone to hold hands?
What is there to life without someone special for you

So,

What is there to life???

Tuesday, February 2

My love is A question??

Love you a little bit more

I love you a little bit more when you give me a call,
I love you a little bit more when you pronounce sayang,
I love you a little bit more when you say the right words,
I love you a little bit more when you say I want you,
I love you a little bit more when you say LOVE is the way,
I love you a little bit more when you say You are the one,
I love you a little bit more when you say I like that,
I love you a little bit more when you say miss the moment,
I love you a little bit more when you say You are the best,
I love you a little bit more when you say I am ready,
I love you a little bit more when you say "really, its true",
I love you a little bit more when you say do come closer.

THE TRUTH IS

I love you more and more when you CALL me SAYANG and SAY I LOVE YOU and I MISS YOU...I REALLY DO!!



Days without you
Without you my days begins with:-
"Sadday",
"Moanday",
"Tearsday",
"Wasteday",
"Thirstday",
"Fightday",

and

"Shatterday"

Where's my time gone missing??

365Days dreaming of you.

8760Hr thinking of you.

525600Mins missing you.

315360000Milisec just wanted to tell you how much you mean to me.



Maybe she, Maybe her but ONLY ONE YOU

There are 12 Months in a year...It could be her

4 weeks in a month.....She could be it

7 days in a week...Probably her

24 Hrs in a day....She,maybe

BUT

There's only one you in a life time...You're a Definite..



so, if my love is a question,
Obviously you are my answer.